Restructuring....

New start,so I have decided to restructure my approach to playing-mainly involving the sites I am going to play on and the bankroll I will allow myself.

Just home from a 12 hour night shift so playing now out of the question-I will not allow myself to play when ill-prepared from now on,fail to prepare = prepare to fail. This being the case I emptied all of my poker accounts and was pleasantly surprised to be able to bank $3650.

I have decided to play my own bankroll on Ladbrokes and Pokerstars and have allowed myself a starting roll of $500 on both sites,so for the time being its STTs only on both for me until I have rebuilt to a level where I can take on the variance of MTTs again.

I still have my $250 daily limit to play on Mansion and GrandSlam through my Badbeat sponsorship-my main priority is to build on these as I have been neglecting them somewhat lately,for no other reason than not wanting to jeopardise their money while on such a bad run. This may sound crazy as I have been burning through my own roll while visiting outdraw city for the past couple of months....but that's just my outlook.

All that remains for me to do now is to get some sleep and think positive thoughts. Bring on the weekend.



NB. Managed to steal a couple of hours in work and played 3 $20 STTs..........1 first and two bubbles,one running KK in sb into AA in bb when 4 handed and 1 guy sitting out.......at least the poker gods have a sense of humour eh?

Start of a new dawn?

Crossroads.........

Everyone comes to one now and again during their life I have had several , many have been more important than this one but nonetheless here I am again with a decision to make.

Ever played poker? Online or live it is a game that I have grown to love but also one which unfortunately at the minute is causing me more than a fair bit of stress. If you do,or have played to a consistent level and the game has become a part of your day to day life I'm sure you may empathise.

To set the scene , I have been playing the game on a fairly serious level part time for the best part of 3 years now with varying levels of success....years one and two were spent losing more than I won but last year things changed with me making a total profit of $24,465...not by any means earth shattering but a nice way of topping up my income by doing something part time which I like.

The plan was to take it to another level this year and all started well when I boarded the plane for New York with my good friend Neil Banks to join the Ladbrokes Poker Cruise III - needless to say a great time was had by all and old friendships were re-kindled and new ones made-not a lot of profit gained to be fair but a free holiday and a great experience,one I will remember for many years to come.

On the back of this I once again met up with John"Punkfloyd"Conroy who told me he was happy to have me back at http://www.badbeat.com/ as a trainee trader,after a previous unsuccessful attempt. I took up the offer when I got home and have progressed from a $200 a day trainee up to $500 a day.

All sounds good eh?.....if only.

Unfortunately I find myself in profit with the above but merely treading water. The run of luck I have had this year has been quite frankly sickening and my personal bankroll is now getting close to danger levels,never before have I been so convinced that now may be the time to stop-Confidence is at an all time low,which never helps....so herein lies the crossroads I spoke of earlier.

Due to some great and well deserved things which have happened to friends of mine recently,along with their support and the inspiration I have garnered from this I find myself with only one option.

Turn left,right or go back ?

Plough straight ahead is the decision I have decided to take . Ignore all the negativity and find my confidence again. I certainly am not the first person to lose it and definitely wont be the last.

The whole process of this blog for me is cathartic, for me to log and analyse my play every day and so make it easier to evaluate my weaknesses and mistakes. A fresh start if you will,forget all that has gone before and positively push forward.

"Thoughts become things" and as the main man said "Big one coming......."

The start of a new dawn ? Absolutely.



To be continued........................